Godslittlegirl:
Member of the Home
Real Name:
Rachel
Location:
Home: Oronoco, MN
School: Nashville, TN.
Email Address:
godslittlegirl2004@hotmail.com
AOL and Yahoo Screenames:
AOL: Poetbutterfly17
MSN: godslittlegirl2004@hotmail.com
YAHOO: rachel_luvs_smokey
Birthday:
October 4, 1985
Favorite Verse and Quote:
Revelation 22:20 and Proverbs 31:10-31
Testimony:
I was born a PK (for those of you who don't know what that means it stands for
Preacher's Kid). I'd always had a biblical influence through that as well as my
grandparents (both sides). While my father was a minister, he was not a good
example of what a father should have been or a good example of a godly man, at
home at least being emotionally and (at times) physically abusive. I accepted
Christ into my heart when I was 6, but that was as far as it went at that point
in my life. I moved to Iowa from Minnesota when I was 8 and was still a rather
happy child, though my father was becoming increasingly irritable over small
things that would spark a bout of temper. We moved back to Minnesota when I was
11, right before school started (literally the day before). After that move I
became extremely depressed because I had no friends (literally) and no one that
I could really trust. My father didn't want to hear about my feelings of being
left out or unloved and I was told continually that I didn't really feel these
things. After about a year of living in Minnesota, I shut myself down completely
emotionally. I began cutting and suicidal thoughts played around in my head daily.
God was really looking out for me during this time, though I ignored His presence.
At one point, around the age of 15, I was at the point where I had a bottle of
prescription pills in my hand and was ready to swallow them all. Before I took
them the phone rang, and I answered it. It was my mother (she never called home
to check up on us during the day.) She talked me out of taking the pills (I don't
really remember all that was said other than I didn't want to live anymore.) Here
is the amazing thing: I talked to her about it this last year, and she doesn't
remember EVER making that call or talking me out of suicide. After this occured
God put two amazing friends in my life, and through their example, the way they
lived their life for God, I recommitted my life to Christ and eventually I stopped
cutting. Since then God has been revealing Himself to me time and time again,
showing me what a father should be, and slowly healing the internal wounds that
I still have. He speaks to me in a variety of ways, through my poetry, through
song, through prayer, dreams, and once literally saying something to me when I was
at a difficult crossroad in my life. Since I came down to Nashville to study
Audio/Visual Production God has been really been using the people down here to
touch and heal me, more than they will ever know.
What Makes Me Smile:
My cats, nature, friends, good music
Favorite Musician(s)/Band(s):
Impossible to narrow down since I like such a broad spectrum of music from
hip-hop, techno, rock, metal, classical, you name it I probably like it.
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